Black balloons

Today is one of my bad days.. I'm grumpy, tired and impatient. Basically a bitch today.

I was fine yesterday when I slept but I think I was restless because I was worrying about my packing for the trip. I was fussing away because of my limited outfits and I didn't want to look fat and even tried on my swimming suit. Twice. I was paranoid about how I looked because I haven't worn one in years.

Came to the office and all day I could hear about nothing else but the trip. I suppose everyone is excited but after having a sleepless night, that was the last thing I wanted to hear. Such a wet-blanket I am. Then comes in the piles of work which I have to finish by today and all that is in my mind is my unfinished packing and snoozing. ZzzZzzz...

There are a lot of back-stabbing going around which I usually ignore but today, these wannabee corporate climbers are getting on my nerves. They are the petty things like getting invited to ride along in the managers car while you're stuck with Darth Vader. It's like how you kill yourself by finishing up all your work and keeping to the plan of increasing efficiency and all that.. but the ones who do get noticed by the heads are the ones who can crack a porno joke and prance around the office.. Oh yes.. I have turned into the green-eyed monster but I dont show it.. I keep it all inside...

Anyway... life has to go on.. I'm going to forget all the unpleasantness around me for a while and look forward to enjoying my trip to Sabah... clean beaches, fresh air and sunshine, expensive paid-for hotel.. Land Below the Wind, here I come!!