It has always been you..

I've always been one who wanted to get married. I think I have also fantasied about how the whole thing should be in my teens. I have joked with my father about eloping somewhere and informing the family from a phone booth. I wanted to grow up fast so badly that I was counting the days that I'll be in my mid-twenties.

Now that I AM in my mid-twenties, I have other things that strike me as more important like my work and making money. Love has taken a back seat for me and although is important, it's more finding the right person who can complete you. Like how Tom Cruise confessed his love in Jerry Macguire (in a constipated way, I have to add), finding someone who completes you is the ultimate challenge. Many waste away finding them all their lives and some, don't see them until it's too late. I have met mine but that is in the unknown zone.. :(

Coming back to my original idea, my friends have been getting married recently. I attended a wedding dinner of my uni mate and the feeling was overwhelming. I am happy that she found her soulmate but the fact that things will not be the same anymore is what I felt. It will no longer be Melissa.. it will be always Alvin and Melissa.. hmm..

Of course when you're in the function, you see people gushing over the couple, you too would wish the same.. you get a heavy feeling in the chest area... maybe even tear up... a little...just have to let it sink in and settle...
In the end, I just sat there quiet for a moment and let it all sink in... it is a joyous thing to find your other half... and instead of feeling sorry and bitter and negative.. the whole occasion is something to celebrate about... i do wish the best for them as Melissa is a dear friend of mine...

Que sera sera... whatever will be.. will be... the future's not ours to see... Que sera sera...